| i keep thinking about that last day. everything from those last moments since i woke up from my nap keep replaying in my mind over and over. i keep seeing it all the time. watching mom die was not how i expected it to be.
it haunts me.
i miss you. i wish there was a cure for cancer, all types, so no one, the loved ones left behind or the ones afflicted with cancer, would have to go through this pain.
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| new goal:
try to only spend $250 a month. will accomplish goal but not using credit card and taking $200 in cash out and only using credit cards for REALLY important things.
Will deposit all money made through tutoring directly to the bank instead of spending it. |
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| Listening to:  (Overcast Vacation) I remember that day.
I was at the computer, playing games,
when my mom came home.
I turned and with a quick glance,
got out of the chair to give her a hug.
Showed her my new toy,
a skinny, blonde, blue-eyed winged fairy doll,
filling young girls' with foolish and unrealistic ideals of beauty.
I was so excited, the doll was so pretty.
Someone took a picture of us,
me in my Care Bear nightgown,
her in her expensive, pretty clothes.
It has been a long time since I was so happy, so carefree.
Throat tightens with remembrance
of happiness
lost,
Eyes start to fill with tears
but, the tears,
they don't fall. |
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Natto Spaghetti Ingrediants
2 packages of natto
Kewpie mayo
Chopped onions
1 can of tuna, drained
minced garlic
chopped cilantro
spaghetti
Butter (optional)
canola oil
soy sauce (to taste)
lemon juce (to taste/optional) Prepare spaghetti as package instructions. Prepare natto with the packaged ingrediants. Stir at least 20 times.
Add butter and oil to hot pot (use the one you cooked the spaghetti in to save from washing additional pots), once hot, add garlic and onions. When onions translucent, add tuna to heat it up. Mix in natto. Add mayo to pot, make sure pasty consistency. Add cooked spaghetti, mix, serve with a squeeze of lemon, and garnish with cilantro. |
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